In The Red | The Feelings Arc
Every time I start to think that everything is fine and I’m in the clear
Something ends up happening;
Worst yet, it’s exactly the same thing
I’m stuck feeling d é j à - v u :
How can I keep doing this?
Why do I keep hoping?
Help me, I can’t make it,
If I only knew the answer…
The same exact thing is always too much to bear,
My emotions get the best of me,
My eyes red-rimmed
I should leave, I know,
But it’s almost wonderful when it’s fine,
And still almost bearable when it isn’t,
Yet when it’s not —
I fester deep within myself,
Red with rage
And still I go on,
Not knowing how much more I can take,
Red, a vibrant red no longer
All that was is losing its luster,
I’m falling through a black veil,
Red no longer intertwining with passion
{I’m beginning to think I’m not in the clear}
I think everything is fine and I’m in the clear…
— Astraea L. Skylar
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